A.k.a. “I felt a Funeral, in my Brain” – which John read in full at the Ours Poetica live kick-off event.
Jonh’s related banter…
And I find it hard to understand and describe how in a bout with depression it feels like reality is falling out from beneath me, until I read Emily Dickinson write, “And then, a plank in reason broke, and I dropped down, and down, and hit a world at every plunge.”
Vlogbrothers | I, Too, Dislike It
Unquoted beginning
I felt a Funeral, in my Brain,
And Mourners to and fro
Kept treading – treading – till it seemed
That Sense was breaking through –
And when they all were seated,
A Service, like a Drum –
Kept beating – beating – till I thought
My mind was going numb –
And then I heard them lift a Box
And creak across my Soul
With those same Boots of Lead, again,
Then Space – began to toll,
As all the Heavens were a Bell,
And Being, but an Ear,
And I, and Silence, some strange Race,
Wrecked, solitary, here –
And then a Plank in Reason, broke,
And I dropped down, and down –
And hit a World, at every plunge,
Unquoted end
And Finished knowing – then –